ord parade

the day has finally arrived.. since the day i saw my first yr commanders having that parade i always dreamt of mine and finally today i got my wish. the whole week was dedicated to perfecting our drills, we had 2 difficult components and that was the advance review order and the slow march. through and though, we did fairly well for the advance review but the slow march is always hard to coordinate cos of the music, the single file and the linking up. besides that, some people just can't slow march no matter how they try.. need the seh lah.. i'm not trying to say i'm good but just look at the pioneer specs, siyong and jason kee, seriously cannot make it man..these are the people who will cause the ones behind them to wrong step. during the last full cue run at 1400, i became emotional when "we are one" started playing.. i sang with pride. i was thinking back how i turned from a normal civilian to a trained soldier now and all the positive experiences i have been through throughout my time here. i must say i've done many other things that others have not experienced, it may be tough and stressful but at the end of the day it's all worth it. went back to bunk and spent the rest of my remaining time to finish unpacking my locker.. wanted to sleep but couldn't.. full of thoughts. i completed my ns goals.. 7/11.. not a bad score.. my only regret in this whole national service is not being able to get my ippt gold and keep my relationship. i was tearing down the pictures on my locker.. those were pictures that accompanied me everyday in these 2 years from bmtc to mhc.. when i miss them i will look at them. i had 2 pictures of belle and me.. i just stared at the picture and remembered those times we spent just being happy in each other's company. we were so happy tat day.. going to the zoo and then to hans for dinner..i think that was one of our most memorable outing.. my heart can't help but sink. she should have been here.. she didn't see me pop so i wanted her to see me ord.. still we didn't stand the test of time.

we had chong pang on tues.. our very last chong pang session together.. even jy joined in the fun.. haha. these supper sessions have always been part and parcel of our lives, especially after a late night trainings like route marches or field training. i remember just coming in from bmtc and refused to eat instant noodles for supper (those days still not allowed to order chong pang). i inculcated a good habit of eating just biscuits.. but soon i was influenced..haha. as dinner would be late, sc went to spec mess to buy food back for us in case we go hungry. me, kg, sc, zh just sat by the table talking about old times, there was always something to look back and laugh about.. how cock we were when we just came in. i was so afraid i'll cry during the parade.. haha.

fall in at 1830.. some people already started coming at 1800.. siao. first yr commanders.. kien soon, langar, daniel, bing yao came. and guess what.. i was just sitting beside lb. langar came and ask one of them where's "biao ge".. and he went to talk to him.. he didn't even say hi.. somemore can treat me like transparent.. i was like what the fuck.. spoil my day. anyway, we screwed our berhenti.. but nvm who cares.. it's a happy occasion. no one cares abt our drills. the slow march was equally screwed.. he was like forever for one step i was constantly losing balance.. and the worse thing it's in a single file and there was nowhere to conceal my mistakes. then again, who cares. took photos after sending arms.. not everyone was around.. even the sect comds were somewhere else.. unlike that time. quite disappointing some of them are not even interested. not interested in parade nvm.. not interested in even taking pictures. i'm talking about eric, who has really changed alot ever since coming back from taiwan. he didn't even want to take a picture with his team when everyone was doing so.. i don't know what to say.. it just feels like we aren't even considered friends to him. maybe to him all these doesn't mean a thing.. maybe he's just fighting on with us because he felt he needed to do something for nick. he's like.. i can't stand loh.. always sleeping or playing game.. and play game is wah non stop one.

joined mum,dad, popo at the cookhouse. popo was damn happy.. i knew it cos i know she likes to watch parades. though this is a simple parade it was very up close. there was nothing much for me to do already.. everyone just can't wait to go home.. what's the hurry. i shook hands with pc, ps and the 3 sect com before i left. sgt gavin hugged me and asked me to take care. he'll be one person i'll miss together with 54 echo.. most memories were revolved around them.. walking together in any condition.. be in extreme heat, cold, rain. i am proud because this team takes care of each other.. i remember when sgt gavin was having a fever in roc.. me and lb cooked noodles for him and lend him our goretex and slept without one that chillish night.. that's team spirit.. and not to mention sharing cigarettes and food. as i loaded my stuff into the car, i can't believe this day would come.. leaving my lockers empty and not going to come back again.