i finally scored!!

spoke to ying er on friday night.. she said it's been a long time since we talked so she called me.. we talked on the phone for abt 2.5hrs. and it just happened when we were abt to hang up min sin called her.. i knew it, my bro's broken up with her if not why would she call her? anyway, i told her she can ask me out if she wants, so we unofficially confirmed for yesterday to catch a movie and for dinner.

woke up and i had to prepare myself for the 1400 game agst ntu.. it would be a pretty easy game to win, jeremiah said that he feel i would score today on tues and i hope the feeling is true. i mean i have to score to boost my morale. it was horrible, the weather was so freaking hot, and it doesn't help when half your team are over 30 and starting off playing with 8 or 9 players against a bunch of university students. once again, we demonstrated sleepiness as we conceded in the first 30sec of the game. thankfully, jeremy started to come on in, kyle led a counter attack and daniel scored one on one with the keeper to draw level at half time. i was put on the right half position, i admit i was struggling a little at midfield, trying to play a more possession game compared to forward. i think fitness apart, i performed ok. second half, danker and dr kong arrived jus nice we had 2 subs. danker's arrival gave us more control in midfield.. something u can't get with tobey.. the worst thing is doesn't have terrific ball control yet he still wants me to pass it back to him. it started raining heavily at the second half and we were all cooled down by the rain.. both sides we tired out crap. finally i got my break, jeremy with a cross into the far post, tobey somehow lost the ball but i on hand to reverse tap a simple ball to give us a lead. we could have killed the game with me at open goal but got challenged.. as well as jeremy's guilty penalty flick that went miles away. so final score, 2-1, put ourselves on unnecessary pressure again. hope we don play like this agst hollandse club tml.

met ying er after the game at vivo. i wanted to watch evan almighty but the queue was crazy.. even the shows for the evening slots were almost full. i tried blood brothers but only front 2 rows were available. it was a rather good outing.. she wasn't feeling very well so we didn't do alot of walking. i dono.. somehow the way she looks at me today, somewhat different.. like more than friends.. but i didn't think much about it. we went to harbourfront centre to grab a bite of xxl chicken.. then she got her hair remover. we went to daiso to try out the caramel corn, quite ok lah, we sat at the sheltered benches just chilling and watching some stupid teens playing soccer, we never done that when we were together before. we had dinner at tiong bahru at the steamboat place she wanted to bring me to the other time. we ate alot man.. had ma la and scallop soup.. i would say it's not bad lah. there were lots of pork, some niang toufu and prawns. she didn't want to peel the prawn so she asked me to do it for her. wanted to go cafe del mar but we aborted the plan cos she seemed tired and on the verge of falling sick. so i sent her home by cab, she laid on my shoulder and put a hand on my lap, this is still the first time she appeared so needy after we broken up. i was just sitting there thinking to myself, she jus probably hasn't found someone. if she has, this wouldn't happen and she would no longer need me. i wanted to hold her hand, wanted to kiss her but no.. i told myself we're just friend and if she really wanted me back she would show it and there's no reason why i should force myself at her again. after i left her, i told myself if she did think abt me she will definitely msg me later on which she did. i mean i knew this was coming.. but again, i didnt think too much into it. probably she's just not feeling well and i happen to be there. sigh.. how come we'll end up like this?