scc awards night

last night was the scc awards night, the last time i went was a few yrs ago when i just joined the club. i think i was still in div 3 back then. looking back, i've seen how much we've grown on and off the pitch and how we developed as a person.

i went for a run at 4pm, it was hot. normally i wouldn't have any difficulties completing the run. this time, i was breathing hard, i could feel my body getting heavier. i wonder if it was due to the heat or is it because of off season fitness. i was told to be at scc at 1830. i slacked and stoned after the rather tiring work out before going to msn and bathe. i was choosing what to wear for the formal occasion to look impressive but my hair wasn't at all impressive. i thought valarie would be there for this social event but i came out disappointed. by the time i left home it was around 6pm already, walking to the bus stop i was sweating already. i thought of taking a cab, the only reason that kept me against the idea was i know i will be taking it back home after the dinner. in the end, i didn't want to be late and reach scc looking like i just went to the sauna so i hailed a cab. when i reached there, there was not a single soul around. the agm was at 1730 and dinner 1900, shit man wtf was i told to go at 1830. i called jonathan and he hasn't even left his house. darn, so i just sat at the terrace smoking, waiting and deleting messages from my hp. haikal and jay joined me around 1900.

the crowd today wasn't very expecting, i could tell the distance between the ladies section and the men's. you could see the ladies on one side the and men on another. by changing coaches for the ladies and men, you can tell the we weren't as close as we used to be. i remember last time we would all mingle around cos we would see each other during trainings. some of them, we don't even know their names. honestly, in that case i feel the section should just be separated. they gave out awards for the team's best players. i thought if they were giving to the juniors i would probably stand a chance. i would be ok if they gave it to danker or dr kong, but they decided to choose ashwin, i was not happy at all. reason being, he didn't really made any impact for the team and he probably just played 5 games out of 13, which is less than half! if you're speaking about penetration i would think wee chin to be a better choice, at least he works harder and he scores. ashwin didn't even score and that's important as a forward. he didn't make any impact at our semis. i just disagree with that decision cos they think too highly of him. the worse thing is i have to cover his shit cos he wasn't around. i went to collect his award for him and still needed to make a speech, what the hell.

the best part of the evening was just drinking and catching up with everyone else. i did my fair bit of entertaining today, talking to joan, danker and felix. jay "introduced" me to felix, probably thinking i don't even know him. so felix asked me why i didn't apply for rs platou and all that.. i just didn't know how to answer him. the truth is i don't want to go in without being confident of my performance. i don't feel comfortable having a expat boss cos i just can't stand them anymore. i used to think they were liberal and more forgiving but they aren't. they are the most senseless and arrogant people around. not that i'm saying he is one.

then it was danker's turn. i'm really glad to have known him, he's like a second dad who's seen me grown up. i respect him because he pursues what he wants to and not get affected by what the society expects. well of course he faced the consequences but at least he lived a good part of his life doing stuff he likes to cos it's not that he cannot become a professional. i know with his talent and intellect he can achieve things that others can. he's optimistic and always trying to explore. and now even at 43, he's still taking his degree. it's not easy for a parent much less for a person in his 40s. coming from a man who has been through a whole lot in his life, it goes to show my decision of starting work was a right one and there will always be a time and place to take a degree later on. what's important is to believe in your capabilities and not be afraid of changes. i guess right now i shouldn't be thinking of keeping up with my peers anymore cos everyone has chosen different paths and it's almost impossible to keep up with everyone but to choose my own and grab the opportunity. his analysis of me was right, i'm a person who plans my journey carefully, not daring enough to try anything by the side. i guess that's why my relationship failed, cos i planned everything so well that the element of surprise was missing. anything that didn't go well will be deemed as failure. i wanted to please her so i was complied to plan a nice day out with her every week. at time, it's just good to live by the moment, that way you'll be happier. i'm still young and i've still 40 years to get by.

me, kandhiban, jonathan, max were sitting, drinking beer and chatting. one by one siew hua and jeanette came over to talk to us. sh needed a lighter so she came over, jean just needed a guy to dance with her. i like sh, i think she's different. there's this certain flair about her that attracts, i wouldn't think she's pretty but combined with this flair i think she's pretty hot. i've always found jeanette pretty but i feel she's pretty shallow. she says she'll date a guy who younger than her if he's cute and rich. fuck it, u mean his father is rich? i just hate it when women talk about money. i know women like men of caliber. there are men out there who isn't rich but are men of caliber simply because they choose a path that they believe in. i probably don't know her well. if she's going to bangkok maybe i think the conversation will continue.

we left scc around 2 plus to eat something at lau pa sat before heading back for the rugby world cup finals. i didn't find it very interesting cos the match was pretty one sided. it's always england trying to score but south africa defending ever so well. rugby is for fools, brute strength without using the brains. there was this snobbish england fan who looked at me like i owe him a living just because i blocked his view. i didn't mean to cos i didn't realise he was behind. in the end ananda kumar quarreled with him cos he's such a sore loser cos his team lost. i was so happy. just because ananda shouted "south africa win, england lose!" he wasn't happy. i mean wtf, scc is not in england and the final is sa and england so it doesn't mean the whole crowd must support england. all these white fuckers think so great about themselves, buzz off man.