SCC Sports Fiesta

went down to scc today for sports fiesta. sean called me over the week to ask me if i was interested in helping out.. i said ok.. i mean for a change meet different ppl.. instead of always meeting the same old ppl everytime. and besides, nemo told me she wasn't gonna meet me anyway.. so better to do something to get my mind off things. she said she can't meet me today cos she needed to rebond her hair.. i felt that even if she didn't rebond her hair she wouldn't have chalked up some time for me.. let's face it.. don't think she even thinks about me. all these while i'm just being too optimistic and too unrealistic.

i went to scc at 3.30pm though it starts at 1.. i needed the car so i cant leave home so early.. besides, had a late night with faye as well. i badly needed a tan.. at least 1,2 hrs under the sun better than nothing. i helped out with the hockey game.. they were supposed to juggle the ball with the stick.. it was stupid.. the players are juggling so fast i don't think we are even fast enough to catch how many times they did it lah.. then went to play balut.. it's a pretty fun game if luck is on ur side.. but heck we lost to the ladies team!!

so by 4 plus all the games have ended.. the hot sun also subsided gradually. was just having a beer and smoke with agnes and kevin.. agnes really changed a lot ever since she come back from hk.. she said she slim down but wth.. she still as fat as ever loh. there was this once the mc said "we have a bikini babe.. then blah blah blah.. if u wanna see her get wet pls go over to the dunk basin.." fuck loh.. i find her find there.. dammit agnes in bikini!! *my eyes......arghhhhhhhh...* it was disgusting alright.

went to play some basketball with chandra's son.. he's from st andrews jr.. wow looking at him.. reminded me on how i looked when i was 12.. playing hockey for my sch.. those were the days.. no gf.. no work.. no problems.. that was when ppl ask u what u wanted to do when u grow up and what u wanted to be in 10 yrs time.. and i said.. i wanna be a doctor or a fulltime hockey players. and look at me now.. i realised neither of my dreams..hahaha. well all i can say is things change.. if u set a goal u have to work towards it day in day out no matter what kind of distractions and obstacles are facing you. me and taswinder were squatting and playing bball with "adraino" and a bunch of little girls.. it was pretty fun.. i didn't know i can entertain kids so well. the ndp rehearsals was also on.. then there was this girl who held my finger when she saw the helicopter flew by.. she was scared..hahah so cute man.

as i was sitting at the padang with my mates, watching kids running abt and hearing the band play.. i thought of sherlyn.. i had this sudden urge in me to find out what she is doing.. the urge to get a reply from her. i was contemplating whether to msg her out of the blue on a saturday.. was wondering if she would react negatively. i decided to follow my heart and went ahead with it. though i knew she'll definitely not go on smsing me.. i just replied her whenever she did. when she asked me if i had my dinner.. i don't know why i had a sudden joy in me.. is it cos it's too long someone i wanted ever showed concern to me this way? i just felt that right now everyday i talk to her.. i feel one step furthur away.. the situation seems so different now i have to admit cos she knows that i like her and i know what is it she wants now. she never rejects me nor does she lead me on.. she always leave me half hanging but i'd cling on. another cool evening breeze have sent me wondering if i should call her out next tuesday for dessert after training.. will it be to much to ask for? shall wait till next week and let my heart decide..all i know is i cannot let an opportunity like that slip by me without even trying all the way. pls give me the courage.