going crazy..

i think i need help.. i'm going crazy thinking about sherlyn day in day out.. i just can't get her out of my mind. but how do i justify my actions? though we talk almost everyday on msn.. i only had lunch with her once and i never ever gone out with her, i don't really know her, everything i know about her are through virtual conversations. i can't forgive myself for liking a person through these vague conversations yet i do. can someone help me?!

when she was attached i never dared take a step forward.. just giving an excuse that she was attached and that i would never stand a chance cos she's so faithful to him. now that she's single, i will never ever forgive myself to let this chance slip away. i've never chased a girl, i'm so lost on what to do. i've been single for nearly a year.. been attached for 2.5 yrs before that, never had contatct with any other girl besides belle, now asking me to take a step fwd to date another girl.. man i tell u my nerve is cracking man. you can say i feel intimidated that she's so attractive and confident.. many men will be hot on her heels be it she's attached or not. but that's what life is about isn't it? good things are worth waiting and fighting for. i just need to know if i even stand a glimpse of chance to win her heart, i swear i'll do whatever i can.. just need to get close to her. saying all these doesn't mean a shit if i don't make an effort to. how can i beat my competition? i don't even know what she looks for in a man.. i'm not a very tall guy.. i'm just a lowly ea in pil working ot every single day that i've lost my social life. she's met so many men will she find me boring and "not there"? haha sometimes i feel i'm just being plain stupid thinking about all these keep trying to impress her.. i feel pressured no doubt.. i hope she still does rem our date in 2 weeks time.. instead of telling me about her stm.

faye's coming over to test the godiva ice blended with me.. i hope i master it.. i only have 2 weeks.. i wanna do smtg for her.. smtg to make her feel pampered and that someone thinks of her and makes the effort to do small little stuff to make her happy :) *crosses finger* wooo!