29 Aug

This past month of uni life has been nothing short of boredom. I can’t understand why people would say that uni life was the best of their life, is it because they compared to the routine working life or did they really had so much fun in uni? Well I can understand if they compare to working life. I too found poly life boring until i went to NS. My BMT mates and i kept complaining how nice it was if we were in poly, pretty girls to see and going to town on a weekday afternoon. And when i ORD and went to work, i found how awesome NS was, doing things you will never get to do in civilian life, shooting weapons, riding bike, peeing in the jungle, leaving ur shit trail on the entry point. Somehow when we are in an occupation we only think about the hard work but not what we reap through it, I guess this is human nature perhaps.
College life did not surprise me at all, guys trying hard all the time to get the girls’ attention, to be the hero and create a following with them. As always, Asian girls will grow crazy about the Caucasians. Having observed the way the Caucasian men communicate, I don’t find anything charming about them; therefore the conclusion is it all lies in the looks. You don’t have to be bloody good looking. All you need is blonde hair, English accent, any eye colour except black or brown. I don’t feel sucky or jealous about it cos i feel I am in a stage where i feel that it’s pointless trying so hard to please people, unless you’re out to get a good fuck. I don’t know why my morale has been so low ever since coming here. I guess this must be attributed to certain reasons:
- Knowing how bad service standard here is
- Being cheated by RMC on the hidden cost (call yourself a Christian college and be transparent about your cost, bitch)
- Internet and transport systems
- Being accepted into my course and found out i needed to do maths again! IDP should have known better and Macquarie should have told me earlier
- Not enough Singaporeans
- Being left out in conversations
Nothing here could actually beat Singapore, from the service to the technology. The only thing which i felt was excellent is the beer. The beer is so good I think I’ve become a Tooheys and Carlton addict. I have been studying from day to night every single day, most of the time doing maths. I probably spend 15 hours doing maths every week, just look at the amount of exercises I have done. What i really deserve is beer once a week which is what i look forward to. Last Saturday i had a good talk with Jose over some beer. Listening him talk about the girls, i kind of resign to my fate as a low profile citizen here.
Last Thursday, Lydia asked me out for lunch, i was like wow not too bad at least i am sort of like a friend to her now. I thought maybe she saw me as a friend after i left her class, and it’s better to realise that than never. I suggested going to Eastwood to have lunch cos they are good Chinese food there, i’m just sick of Macquarie. Somehow i felt that she wasn’t sincere in the appointment because we can spend few minutes just deciding where to meet. Scenario: I will end my class at E4B and she will end hers at Macquarie theatre, but she said it’s far and asked if i wanna meet her at the bus stop to eastwood, come on how far is the campus? At that moment my impression of her just became worst but i didn’t think too much about how weird she is. So we went eastwood, had our lunch. I paid the bill first, and hers was $8. She only had $20, so do I. I told her it’s ok you can always return it to me another day. What fuck sia she thought i wanna date her like that.. so she replied “No, i don’t think we will see each other again.” At that point, there was a lot of questions running through my head, why did she even ask me out at the first place? As we were approaching the train station, all the mystery fell into place. She told me actually her purpose of asking me out was to spread Christianity to me and she will still spread it even after what i said about cell groups. At that moment, i was so disappointed in her. Why? Cos i just got punked big time by her. Look, if u wanna spread Christianity, do you need to do it at lunch? Seriously she’s a young fuckhead. I wasted my time, i could have gone lunch with Rendy and Heri at Chatswood! I am usually 90% accurate in judging people but i was wrong about her, she’s no different from the average Christians selling their religion on the middle of the street. She just needs a customer to patronise her church so that they will grow, and not a friend or a classmate. As soon as i boarded the train, i deleted a number. She is not worthy of being my friend at all. People like her think that they will go to heaven just because they go to church every Sunday, all other people in this world is inferior. In fact, religion have made them people worse than they were before, they start to get brainwashed and do all sorts of funny things to brag about their religion, not considering other people’s feelings.